Should i be happy with who i am?

Im 19, male, and in a respectable college. We are all products of our environment and I am no exception. My past includes abuses form a psychologist, a doctor who proscribed experimental medicine for anti personality disorders which totally screwed me up, and parents who were unable to trust me because they thought i was nuts. Obviously this is over simplified and quite a bit more happened enough to fill much more space than yahoo gives me. Both parents have given me genes that have intensified said ability and amplified it to a level i have yet to see in another person. Much like in a child abuse case i'm now able to read everyone around me almost without fault. I'm a high self monitor and choose to constantly keep everyone around me happy. It's almost like a compulsion. I just do it subconsciously. There is not a person i can't charm or work with. I'm an unparalleled arguer but I never use the ability because i see every argument coming and change events so it never comes to that. They all love me and they have a copious tendency to confide in me and talk to me about their troubles. I've been good friends with 5 people sense 2nd grade (i moved in 2nd grade but still cross 800 miles to see more than one friend from where i used to live) and still hang out with them including many new friends. The problem is that i have formed a wall of good will around me and i'm afraid i may be standing still. No one knows anything about my past and i have only in the last 3 months hinted there may be more to who i am than what i let them see. My closest friends are all smart and r going to be doctors and professors but they are not nearly smart enough to figure out who i am. I'm very smart (i'm just going to ume everyone is going to think im conceited so ill at least half prove my IQ) my dads a chemical engineer who for all intense and purposes has a Ph.d. My mom went to northwestern but choose to be a house wife instead of pursuing her career. I've taken an IQ test but it was void however i did score perfectly on the short term memory and verbal sections. I joined my schools chess team for one year and with no out side studying beside when the chess team meet (once a year) i came in 3rd in my conference(population of the conference was about 60,000). I also don't trust anyone no matter what. i have had to doge more than one romantic relationship because i realize i'm giving that person a chance to hurt me. I hate all of my friends too. I see most if not all of their faults and i see how to break them. i see their umptions i know what their thinking (a bit hypocritical i know). i can finnish most of their sentences anytime i want. I always act the same and never ever get mad. I just don't have bad days. In the past i have always umed that i was a good guy because the people around me always came first and i'd make them happy. Now i think it might just be a defense mechanism and they really don't matter to me. so i guess my question is would u want to be friends with me, do my friends deserve to know my past if i already know everything about them, and should i try to change who i am? Any impressions would be nice however i'm not really looking for an ego boost so i would be more appreciative of criticism. I also realize this is not very cogent and just a jumbled pile of thoughts. so that i don't appear completely ego centrical i have my faults 2 they include i can't spell, my hand writing sucks, i hate school, i find it hard to get motivated for academics, i'm bad at grammar and i don't like work.